不要害怕

主說:

"你不要害怕，因為我與你同在；

不要驚惶，因為我是你的神。

我必堅固你，我必幫助你，

我必用我公義的右手扶持你。"

又說:

"因為我耶和華你的神 必攙扶你的右手，

對你說: 不要害怕！

我必幫助你。"

~以賽亞書41:10, 13

前方的風景

過了橋

迎接我的是什麼?

在美國的這段時間 有好多的感受

昨天 路邊的樹還搖曳生姿 樹葉摩擦出歡樂的聲響

今天 滿地落葉 只剩下樹枝僵硬的豎立

一直是一個人

一直以為知道自己會往哪去

最近 卻再也不確定了

但是 父啊 祢找到了我 擦乾了我的眼淚

求祢不要放開手

求祢不要離開我

失去祢 我將沒有勇氣跨過這座橋

失去祢 我將不知前方風景的美好

求祢牽著我的手 讓我堅定的往前走

走向橋的另一端 走向未知

我是草履蟲???

草履蟲雖然沒有腦
但他們總能轉個角度
離開不喜歡的環境到喜歡的環境去

我一向不喜歡複雜的東西
尤其是人際關係
從小到大
我不斷逃離這樣的環境
一直有個想活在簡單環境中的夢想
卻總是有人把我硬是拉進他們複雜的世界
為什麼人不能單純的快樂、難過
為什麼總有那麼多人以關心之名,
用他們的自以為是的價值觀來衡量我的心情
每個人都有歷史
都有說不出的話
你所看到的
並不一定代表所有
也許該如何去"關心"是我們都應該學習的
我知道我不需要那些多餘的觀感與想法
只要做自己
我不需要太多多餘的複雜關係
只要神與我的關係穩固
這世界有太多添加的東西
太多的想法與意見
太多的紛紛擾擾
已經覺得很累
曾經以為在某些環境裡能享有真正安寧
但似乎並不是如此
我不希望自己的舉動牽動別人的情緒
也不希望他人的行為影響我的生活
我只要單純愛我愛的人
只要追求我最初的理想
只要發自內心的笑、因感動而哭
我想真正的寧靜只有從神而來

The Lord is my shepherd, I shall not be in want.
He makes me lie down in green pastures,
he leads me beside quiet waters,
he restores my soul.
He guides me in paths of righteousness for his name's sake.
Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I will fear no evil, for you are with me;
your rod and your staff, they comfort me.

You prepare a table before me
in the presence of my enemies.
You anoint my head with oil; my cup overflows.
Surely goodness and love will follow me all the days of my life,
and I will dwell in the house of the Lord forever.
~Psalm 23

not in my plan...

The only thing that never changes is change.

從沒想過一年前無意間做的一個決定
竟為我現在和以後的生活帶來如此大的變動
一個我從未做過的夢
就這樣打亂了我的計畫
一個大家都想要的機會
就這麼毫無預警出現在我面前
也許這就是人生有趣的地方
你永遠不知繼續往下走
路旁會是什麼風景
怎會有人捨得自殺呢?
儘管現在心中是五味雜陳
我相信主的安排絕不是惘然
不論會辛苦或孤單
我有主陪伴

"No eye has seen,
no ear has heard,
no mind has conceived
what God has prepared for those who love him."
~ 1 Corinthians 2:9

...said Augustine

Everlasting God, in whom we live and move and have our being:
You have made us for Yourself, and our hearts are restless until they rest in You.

~Augustine


I was deeply moved when the first time I heard this prayer. It reminded me the life before I became a christian. Like a drifter, I had no destination. More than hundreds of times, I asked myself where would be my home, where I should go, and why I was here.

My friends thought I should have been a bird in my last life, if there had been a last life. I don't want to be a bird. Most of the time, I was tired of fighting with the crowds and found nowhere to rest. Until I became a christian, things changed day by day. I knew that I was not lonely because "home is where someone loves you".

God loves me, so I have home.
God loves me, so I have the place to rest.
God loves me, so I have courage to move on.
Though I haven't known where to go for my studying, I don't worry about that.
I will wait with patience and joy~